Wanted to share from my journal today….

I’m learning that stepping out with a book such as Heartstone sets many forces in motion. As people are reading my journey and finding themselves in the pages, its truly awesome to hear what God is doing through it all. What I am learning is how to stand firm when the enemy comes raging in like a flood with full intention of taking me out.

So this morning one of my employees comes into my office for something work related, leaves, sits down at her desk and says, “Tim is everything alright? You don’t look like everything is OK.” Pausing at her unintentional discernment, and stumbling for the words to respond with…I simply shared that I was experiencing a heaviness and that I would be OK. Not being able to shake this heaviness, I decided to head out and take a walk around town to just collect my thoughts and get alone with God.

Here is a snippet of that conversation…

“Heavenly Father, as You are using Heartstone to impact the lives of others I am finding it very hard, at times, to stand against the opposition to Your plan. Of course you know that I am still working through some stuff and the enemy has somehow zero’ed right in on this and is relentlessly working overtime to knock me down. Lord, as I come before You with my face to the ground I wrestle with feelings that I am not proud of what You see. Then You look at me, hold me and all my insecurities fade away. You bring me to that place of a child resting at Your feet…softly speaking into my life.

Lord, it amazes me how comforting it is when I get alone with You, when all the noise fades away. I am again reminded of my need for You! You are always enough when this world leaves me dry!”

So shall they fear the name of the LORD from the west, and His glory from the rising of the sun; when the enemy comes in like a flood, the Spirit of the LORD will lift up a standard against him. -Isaiah 59:19 (NKJV)